Will shortly be completing my 7th month. Planning to take a few days of WFH starting next month onwards, when I enter the 8th month. Also, planning to send dear daughter Chhavi away to my parents house. Chhavi has been getting more and more clingy by the day as the due date gets closer. Hence the thought. Not easy for me / dear dad to leave her and stay away by ourselves, but looks like it has to be done. She's been getting more crankier and cries at every possible chance.
She cries if something doesnt go as she wants. She cries if the building blocks that shes playing with dont fit in a particular way. She cries if things are not going her way. She cries if anybody talks to her when she doesnt wanna. She cries at almost everything. Sometimes, I feel so frustrated that I feel like hitting her. But I havent hit her recently.
I do scream from time to time and she cries again for that too. But I am putting a lot of effort in being extra patient and not hit her. Thats because I made a promise to myself that I'll control my anger henceforth. I was so forlorn after the last few times I hit her. Although I don't hit hard, there were finger marks on her body (she has sensitive skin) and it made me sad and depressed when I saw that. So I have made up my mind to control my temper to a very large extent.
Now that I am entering the 8th month, I also have a lot of planning to be done. Need to pack stuff away for the hospital, clean up the room entirely, pack a few stuff for Chhavi and the baby for use when I go to Mangalore etc., etc., Too many things on my mind. Too much stuff to resolve at work too. Few projects in my hand which I need to clear up before leaving for my maternity. Have to keep in mind not to take up any long projects, which I cannot handle or which would stress me out.
Planning on meeting up with my sister and cousin - planning a small get-together as sis is going away abroad for a few years. Oh God !! So many things - so much planning - so much to be done. I should take a time management course. I have always been bad at it and it would definitely help and I have been thinking about it for a while now. Maybe ill find some courses online - now that everything is available online :D :P
Will try and keep the blog updated...
- So
She cries if something doesnt go as she wants. She cries if the building blocks that shes playing with dont fit in a particular way. She cries if things are not going her way. She cries if anybody talks to her when she doesnt wanna. She cries at almost everything. Sometimes, I feel so frustrated that I feel like hitting her. But I havent hit her recently.
I do scream from time to time and she cries again for that too. But I am putting a lot of effort in being extra patient and not hit her. Thats because I made a promise to myself that I'll control my anger henceforth. I was so forlorn after the last few times I hit her. Although I don't hit hard, there were finger marks on her body (she has sensitive skin) and it made me sad and depressed when I saw that. So I have made up my mind to control my temper to a very large extent.
Now that I am entering the 8th month, I also have a lot of planning to be done. Need to pack stuff away for the hospital, clean up the room entirely, pack a few stuff for Chhavi and the baby for use when I go to Mangalore etc., etc., Too many things on my mind. Too much stuff to resolve at work too. Few projects in my hand which I need to clear up before leaving for my maternity. Have to keep in mind not to take up any long projects, which I cannot handle or which would stress me out.
Planning on meeting up with my sister and cousin - planning a small get-together as sis is going away abroad for a few years. Oh God !! So many things - so much planning - so much to be done. I should take a time management course. I have always been bad at it and it would definitely help and I have been thinking about it for a while now. Maybe ill find some courses online - now that everything is available online :D :P
Will try and keep the blog updated...
- So
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